I was doing some journalling the other day and it occurred to me that when I was a little girl, I loved to be organised. I was supremely tidy. My sister used to tease me about my sock drawer being so sorted. I did love to empty that draw and re-organise it! I loved to hang my clothes in colour order. I had all my dolls lined up, just so. My bedroom was immaculate. I kept a budget and a close eye on pocket money coming in and how I spent it. I saved carefully for Christmas presents and holidays. I was one organised young lady.

Hand on heart, there is a slight sadness to my organisation – I guess it was my way of feeing in control and safe in a world where sometimes I didn’t feel too secure. But, as I journaled, I saw the humour and innocence in it too. I connected more deeply to me as a little girl and discovered that her essence was more than just organised. She loved to wear very bright colours and ‘shocking pink’ nail polish. She would spend hours absorbed in drawing, sculpting and taking photographs. She loved to sit in the garden with a cup of tea, eyes closed, and feel the hot sun on her eyelids. Music was her bliss. She loved to run long distances and swim in the ocean. To write stories and record them onto a cassette tape. She would laugh until she couldn’t breath and gosh, she was just so loveable…..

I fell in love with that little Aussie girl as I journaled. And, I was reminded of the truth of me. What really makes me tick. So I was inspired to start this year with that in mind. To ensure that this year I live into all that lit me up when I was little. Because, what is the point of this life if we are not living into the truth of us? And, it occurred to me, that I could even draw on the super organised little lady that I used to be and get certain areas of my life back in order….because deep down, I know I want to!!

What lit you up when you were a little girl? Could you inject some of that into your life now?

Katie x

(yep – the pic above is of me as a little girl….!)