My word this week is commitment.

As I continue to delve deeper and deeper into my Self-Love Affair, my commitment to myself is under scrutiny.

It has been interesting to commit (there is that word again) to a 21day practice of intentionally receiving. It has been beautiful, creative and fun.  It has also been challenging at times.

For example, on Day Three I was beside myself with anger. I couldn’t understand it. There I was, open to receiving (I even let a shop-keeper carry my boxes to the car….Seriously – that is unheard of for Miss Independent!) and yet it felt like I had a gremlin inside challenging me at every turn. My ego was NOT happy at all about my intention to receive love in its myriad of forms. No sir. One part of me was willing and open to receiving all that is abundantly available to me versus a bastard little voice telling me to ‘be careful or you might get let down’ or ‘it will not last’ or ‘who the hell do you think you are’ etc etc.

That voice REALLY pissed me off.

At first I was resistant to the anger. I was trying so gallantly to ‘receive love with feminine ease and grace’ (that’s my affirmation) that I wasn’t prepared to let in a ‘negative’ emotion.

Nope, I was all ‘love and light, love and light’….’la la la la la’ ….. ‘ooh, lets take a pretty picture…’

And then I witnessed what I was doing – blocking and repressing a very valid emotion.

So, I consciously committed to allowing the anger. After-all, that’s what emotional mastery is all about.

As I allowed it, I realised I was receiving.

Aha! A lesson learned.

The emotion needed to be allowed and expressed. So, I had a little tanty in the car (no embarrassing onlookers….phew!) and then I allowed compassion and forgiveness to step in.

Exhale.

My heart opened and I experienced a deeper level of receiving self-love.

Divine.

And so my self-love affair continues with my commitment to myself being challenged further. Next week I will share with you how I have been learning a ‘new normal’ around the way I work which involves working a lot LESS, as I commit even more deeply to myself and my needs. If you are a work-a-holic or a ‘hard worker’, next week’s newsletter has your name all over it!

Big big love to you.
xx

Katie x

P.S. have you been tracking my Instagram images as I photo-journal my ‘Art of Receiving’? You can find me at ‘daringandmighty’ using #daretorecieve  – may you receive their juicy loving loveliness!