Felt a bit unsettled this-evening. Nothing negative or upsetting or worrying, just fidgety. So, time for a quick check-in…..

I guess my physical self is feeling edgy because I am full of a cold. My intellectual self is exhausted with the constant running of ‘to do’ lists. My emotional self is pretty stable. My spirit self is screaming for expansion!

Remedy – very hot bath to ease my physical symptoms and to calm down my mind followed by a meditation.

During my meditation I felt very aware that perhaps I was looking to escape. I must admit to loving that ‘lifting’ feeling of leaving my physical body when in deep meditation and I guess I was looking for that release tonight. It didn’t come in the way I was hoping for. Instead I was reminded that I am meant to be in my body, to experience this life. There is no ‘escaping’ it. To feel that realisation felt very grounding and probably just what I needed. My meditation then connected me with my absolute true self, free of mental lists, worries, guilt and so on. I connected with who I really am and what I guess I am striving to be and feel every day. Light. Joyful. Wise. Deeply happy. Content. Grounded. Stable. I saw a woman in her 60’s with deeply soulful wise eyes, plump with content and a pillar of strength, love and community to the many people around her. Her love is immense. I don’t know who she is but I have seen her before. Sometimes it feels as if she is me. Then is feels as if she is a guide. Haven’t worked it out yet but when I see her I feel so peaceful and I know that it is a message to me that she is all I want to be.